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TEKKA 17TH 4132

HOLLISTER SUGGESTED THAT I WRITE A JOURNAL SINCE THE OUTLET MAY SHAKE LOOSE SOME OF THE MEMORIES HIDDEN DEEP WITHIN MY MIND. MY GROWING FRUSTRATIONS WITH NOT KNOWING WHO I REALLY AM HAS EXHAUSTED MY SENSE OF BEING. IF IT WASN’T FOR HOLLISTER, MY FRIEND, I WOULD NOT HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THESE LAST FEW MONTHS WITH ANY SANITY LEFT. THE MORE I THINK UPON IT, THE MORE ANGRY I BECOME. WHAT? WHO? HAS DONE THIS TO ME……..HAVE I BEEN CURSED? HAVE I WRONGED SOMEONE WHO SOUGHT OUT THERE REVENGES AND PLAYED A CRUEL JOKE UPON MY FATE. IN MY LITTLE TIME UPON THIS WORLD I HAVE REALIZED NOTHING HAPPENS BY CHANCE. THE WORDS OF HOLLISTER STILL RING IN MY MIND EVERY MOMENT I THINK ABOUT IT…..”STAY THE COURSE, BE WHO YOU ARE NOW, THAT IS ALL WE HAVE, IN TIME YOU MAY LEARN THE TRUTH BUT IF YOU DON’T, BE STRONG WITH THE MEMORIES YOU HAVE NOW”  

RENDOLAR 12TH 4133

I HAVEN’T BEEN WRITING MUCH IN THIS JOURNAL SINCE THE DAYS HAVE BEEN RUNNING TOGETHER. IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE I’VE BEEN HERE AT THE ESTATE FOR THREE MONTHS. TODAY WAS ANOTHER PRODUCTIVE DAY OF TRAINING. I AM AMAZED THE THINGS I HAVE PICKED UP SO QUICKLY. HOLLISTER IS STILL QUICK TO TRY AND SQUISH THE EGO WHEN MY HEAD GETS TOO BIG. I WISH HE WOULD QUIT LECTURING ME ABOUT “THE THIN LINE BETWEEN CONFIDENCE AND ARROGANCE”…….I HAVE GROWN TO RESPECT  MORE AND MORE THE SKILLS OF KOL……I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT THAT I COULD ACTUALLY LEARN A THING OR TWO FROM A GOBLIN, THOUGH YOU’LL NEVER CATCH ME ADMITTING THAT.  

TELULE 5TH 4133

TODAY WAS AN ODD DAY ……..WHILE IN MY ROOM, I SPIED HOLLISTER AND KOL BRINGING INTO THE ESTATE A RATHER HOMELY LOOKING DWARF…., WELL AREN’T THEY ALL……HE WAS APPARENTLY UNCONSCIOUS. HOLLISTER IS QUITE THE ODD FELLOW……THE ESTATE SEEMS TO BE MORE AND MORE LIKE A SCHOOL OF REFUGEES THAN HOME TO ME. IT MAY BE TIME FOR ME TO EXPAND MY HORIZONS AND REACH OUT TO THE ADVENTURES THAT ARE CALLING ME……THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE SOME PLACE. I AM STILL NOT SURE THOUGH THAT I AM READY FOR THAT JUST YET. I AM STILL STRUGGLING WITH MY PLACE IN TIME RIGHT NOW.  

TELULE 7TH 4133

I SAW MINA TODAY; SHE HAS BEEN COMING BY THE ESTATE FROM TIME TO TIME BUT FROM WHAT I UNDERSTAND IN SPEAKING TO KOL THAT HOLLISTER HAS MANAGED TO TAKE HER UNDER HIS LONG REACHING WINGS AS WELL.  I HAVE LONG CONSIDERED HER A FRIENDLY ACQUAINTANCE…….MAYBE IT IS ABOUT TIME THAT I TRY AND FINALLY OPEN UP AND MAKE A FRIEND……OTHER THAN HOLLISTER AND KOL. IT HAS BEEN HARD FOR ME LATELY………DID I HAVE FRIENDS BEFORE? DID THEY DO THIS TO ME? SO MANY QUESTIONS I HAVE………..  

ENGLAR GLADSTONE …..THAT IS HIS NAME…..THE DAMN NOISY DWARF IN THE ROOM NEXT TO ME. APPARENTLY HE WAS ATTACKED WHILE ON THE ROAD WITH HIS PARENTS BY A DRAGON. FROM WHAT I GATHER THEY WERE KILLED AND HOLLISTER MANAGED TO SAVE ENGLAR………COULD HE HAVE SAVED ONE OF THE OTHERS INSTEAD…..HE IS SO NOISY!  

TELULE 15TH 4133

I HAVE SPENT THE PAST FEW DAY DRILLING AND LEARNING NEW TECHNIQUES FROM HOLLISTER. SOMETIMES IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE HE IS ALMOST EIGHTY YEARS OLD! ENGLAR AND MINA EVEN JOINED IN. IT WAS NICE TO NOT BE SPARING AGAINST THE SAME PERSON. THAT ENGLAR IS A TOUGH LITTLE RUNT. MINA ON THE OTHER HAND ISN’T MUCH FOR SWINGING A SWORD. MINA LIKE THE BOOKS…..I HAVE LEARNED THAT SHE HAS AN AFFINITY FOR THE ARCANE ARTS. THAT COULD DEFINITELY COME IN HANDY WITH A FEW OF MY NEW FOUND TALENTS.  

TELULE 18TH 4133

IT SEEMS AS THOUGH HOLLISTER HAS TAKEN IT INTO HIS HANDS TO HIRE US OUT AS MERCENARIES. HELL I COULD DEFINITELY USE A BIT OF ADVENTURE THESE DAYS.  GERTRUDE FREDERICK FROM THE GRAY GRIFFIN TAVERN CAME TO HOLLISTER TO ENLIST HIS HELP, BUT IT SEEMS AS THOUGH HE PAWNED IT OFF TO US……GUESS IT WAS BENEATH HIM. HER HUSBAND, REGINALD, SEEMS TO HAVE NOT RETURNED AFTER HE WENT INTO THE CELLAR LOOKING FOR THE VERMIN THAT WERE CAUSING A BIT OF A DISRUPTION. I SHALL FINALLY GET TO SEE IF MY NEW FOUND COMRADES ARE UP TO THE TASK AT HAND. THIS MAY BE A REAL SHORT RELATIONSHIP….I NEED TO MAKE SURE THEY CAN TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES, I HAVE ENOUGH TO WORRY ABOUT IN THE DAYS AHEAD WITHOUT HAVING TO BABY SIT……..  

WELL IT TURNS OUT THAT MY FIGHTING SKILLS ARE GOOD ENOUGH TO FEND OFF FOUR ATTACKERS BUT NOT A FIFTH….. I NEED TO WORK ON THAT. AFTER GETTING A BRIEF EXPLANATION OF EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED WE PROCEEDED INTO THE CELLAR. ENGLAR TOOK UP THE LEAD AND I FOLLOWED CLOSELY BEHIND…..CAN’T LET THE NOISY DWARF SCARE EVERYTHING AWAY BEFORE I GET A CHANCE TO GET TO IT, I NEED TO TEACH HIM THE ART OF STEALTH ONE OF THESE DAYS…….MINA BROUGHT UP THE REAR. MINA SEEMED TO CAST A FEW SPELLS…PROTECTIVE MOST LIKELY……ON HERSELF……TYPICAL HUMAN. I GUESS I CAN’T BE TO PUT OFF BY THEM, FROM MY RESEARCH I HAVE GATHERED I AM HALF HUMAN…..THOUGH I FEEL A GREATER APPRECIATION FOR MY OTHER HALF……I DIGRESS…….ANYWAY……WE IMMEDIATELY SAW REGINALD LYING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FLOOR. FOR A HARDENED DWARF ENGLAR WAS SURE NOT EAGER TO GET OFF THE STEPS. HE WAS GOING TO TRY AND ATTEMPT TO LASSO REGINALD AND PULL HIM OVER TO THE STARTS…..BRAIN DEAD MIDGET……HE WAS IN PRETTY BAD SHAPE. SO I TOOK ACTION I WENT OVER TO HIM, DISREGARDING WHAT EVER DANGERS WERE ABOUT, AND ATTEMPTED TO MOVE HIM TO THE STAIRS. THIS IS WHEN I WAS ATTACKED BY SEVERAL DOG SIZED RATS. THEY WERE TOUGH BUT NOTHING I COULDN’T HANDLE IF I WAS THE ONLY ONE I WAS WORRIED ABOUT. BY THIS TIME ENGLAR HAD ACTUALLY PEELED HIMSELF OFF THE STEPS AND TAKEN UP DEFENSE OF MY BACK. SO I WAS LEFT TRYING TO DEFEND MYSELF REGINALD AND MINA WHO HAD COME OVER TRYING TO AID REGINALD. TURNS OUT ENGLAR ACTUALLY WAS QUITE SUCCESSFUL IN HIS EFFORTS TO FEND OFF THE GIANT VERMIN…..I DON’T REMEMBER MUCH AFTER I SUCCUMBED TO THE FIFTH VERMIN  WHO FINALLY MANAGED TO OVER POWER ME. AFTER THE LAST RAT WAS DISPATCHED APPARENTLY ENGLAR FOUND A SMALL TUNNEL OR SOMETHING IN THE EAST WALL WHERE THE LARGE VERMIN CAME IN FROM……WE PLAN TO GO BACK AND INVESTIGATE ONCE I AM AT FULL HEALTH AGAIN. I SHOULD REMEMBER TO ONLY WORRY ABOUT MYSELF IN COMBAT FROM NOW ON BUT I THINK I AM BEGINNING TO ACTUALLY LIKE THESE TWO.